Am I losing my mind?

It’s funny how we are in our humanity. There are seasons where God clearly gives us victories. We celebrate. We do the happy dance. This may last for a day or two. Then, we get frustrated, discouraged, or dismayed by the smallest thing. I’m talking about inconsequential things. You misplace your keys. A small project you are working on doesn’t go your way. Someone in your family says something that is misinterpreted and gets you sideways.

Small things that trigger us in a big way. This happens more than I care to confess. It’s crazy. I’m embarrassed to even write about it. It is what it is, I suppose. Please tell me you can relate? I mean, I literally just came out of a tidal-wave-journey and season of pain, suffering, uncertainty, and confusion—all while experiencing God’s matchless and consistent grace throughout it all. Right? For now, I’m healthy from cancer and sickness is seemingly absent from my body. Praise God! Rarely was there a day during that season, by the way, where I didn’t see God at work, shining his light even when it was clearly dark all around. And then there are days as if I forget it all.

Am I losing my mind? Have I completely lost my memory? Not completely. This is just how we are in our humanity. We quickly, albeit momentarily, come down with amnesia, for lack of a better analogy, respectfully.

In a nutshell, and quickly focusing to heartbeat of this article - This is why I need the Scriptures daily. The ancient Scriptures remind me of the grander, more magnificent, story at work in and through me each day, despite me. The Scriptures remind me that God’s story, HIS story, is my story, and the greater theme of redemption and reconciliation pursues me even when I am temporarily absent-minded or…seemingly losing my mind. His story is our story. Even when we are unfaithful, God is still faithful . . . in the big victories (albeit beating cancer, perhaps addiction, relational discord, or whatever it is that you are fighting) and in the small victories (peace in the midst of losing my keys).

Listen, you’re not losing your mind, and neither am I. We’re just allowing other stories to crowd out God’s story of grace and renewal at play in our lives. We need to turn down the other lessor stories and turn up God’s better story in our lives.

As I wrap up these thoughts, I often overhear Becky (my beloved) listening to worship music. She LOVES Lauren Daigle. Not too long go, I really leaned in and listened to the words in one of her songs, entitled "Remember." It was just what I needed to hear in that moment and the words of this song were a testament to God’s faithfulness, consistency, and goodness, even when we can’t see it all of the time. Read along and catch what I caught in the chorus.

“I remember, I remember.

You have always been faithful to me.

I remember, I remember

Even when my own eyes could not see

You were there, always there.”

Pretty simple reminder to us that God hasn’t left you. God has not abandoned you. You continue to walk with Him and He will continue to pull you in. Listen, you are NOT losing your mind. Your story is just getting crowded by other lessor stories.

So may we lean in to the greater and grander story of God and may we be reminded that God has been faithfulness in His goodness to us as we look forward to what tomorrow will bring.

Do it again God! Do it again!

"For the Lord is good.

His unfailing love continues forever,

and his faithfulness continues to each generation." Psalm 100:5